I wrote this poem for you.
It is meant to empower you, and to inspire you to keep moving toward body liberation.
Eating disorder recovery is likely the hardest thing that you will ever do in your entire life. And, it’s worth it; you’re worth it.
I know sometimes you feel like giving up. I understand that sometimes it all feels too hard and just too much. Please know that it won’t always be this way. Things will get easier, you will feel better. And then, of course, you will feel worse again. But here’s the thing- with practice, you will get better and better at coping with the hard times, and you will learn to trust that the good feelings will return.
Please don’t give up. If you’re not in therapy, here’s a reminder that if it’s accessible to you, you need to be in it. There are plenty of resources out there, don’t hesitate to email me if you’d like some suggestions.
I Will Hold On To Myself
I weigh one thousand pounds
I defy gravity
Mountains for thighs
Blue sky for miles
This is my reckoning
My abdomen houses wisdom
My intuition lives inside
With these hands I carve out hope
Grief and joy intertwined
I am made up of stars and strife
My soul contains dark matter
It heaves in my chest with sparks and life
With this body, I sing laughter
My heart breaks and mends
Countless drum beats pound and bleed
Held tightly in my flesh and skin
A ceaseless melody
I am beyond measurement
Numbers cannot know me
I do not exist for distortion
In this moment, I am free
(I am me)
I weigh six hundred tons
I am gravity
I am large like a tree
Rooted in the truest version of me
I expand and stretch my skin
My being cannot be contained
No man can define who I am
My worth cannot be named
I step forward, chest high
Into the uncertainty of the day
Fear tightly clutched in my fists
I can trust me,
I’m ok.
Written with love by Veronica L Rocha, MA, LPC-S, CPT
You are so much more than a body, and you deserve love, respect, success, and the life that you truly desire- in the body that you have right now… and when it expands. Your full recovery is possible; please keep going!
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